I'm a big fan of this thing called life.

This is one of those days where I'm really not sure where to start.

He emailed me today.

There's a start for you. And it punched to the chest like I always knew it would, but I didn't fall down. I'm still breathing.

There's a start for me.

I went about my business like I wanted to. I didn't spaz out or cry. I let a few friends know, simply for support in saying what I was doing was the right thing. And I carried on.

I'm a big fan of this thing called life.

There is a Work that is stirring and creating and changing, and I am so happy to be along for the ride. A ride that is moving forward not backward. Just like my car last night. "This is not a shallow conversation car." And that's right. It's not. I'm not. Let's get to the point and let's get going for there is really so much to be done.

And that makes me happy.

To watch yourself be used as a piece of a bigger picture is something great and unexchangeable and intangible that I hope I get to experience over and over again. To be given a chance to understand there is so much more to this than me has quite simply changed my life.

And I suppose that's why I wasn't left reeling today when he came out of no where. I suppose that's why I'm excited for tomorrow and the day after and the day after. I'm especially excited that the only Hand I can hold right now is not human, and yet so is.

I am enjoying the twists and wrenches and bursts of color and love that are pouring forth out of a new understanding of what I am all about. I am beautiful. I am changed. There is more to me than you. There is more to You than me.

the god of wine comes crashing through the headlights of a car.

where do we begin to get clean again

the colors that were mine

the hope that was mine

and now that time has moved in and through me

the sweat drips down my back as i wait for a glance

a hint of notice

and then suddenly i realize it's gone

and i am happy

the smile is there for me

because i enjoy the inside of this laughter

i can't keep it all together

i know i can't keep it all together

holds a truth i can't erase

every glamorous sunrise throws the planets out of line

a star sign out of whack

a fraudulent zodiac

search for these lyrics

it brings your name with a punch to the chest.

falling in with a heart face first

the smoke rings out the window as the stars swim past

these eyes hum a lullaby to the rest of me

to the best of me

and i drift

away.

make poverty history:tell world leaders to act

From one.org:

I just signed a petition asking the G8 take urgent action against extreme poverty, and I'm hoping that you'll join me.

Sign the petition now at: http://www.one.org/2008g8
There has been a lot of progress against extreme poverty in recent years, but, as recent headlines about the global food crisis will tell you, there is still much to be done.
When we unite with one voice and call upon our leaders to take action, we can and will solve these problems.

_________________________________

from oxfamamerica.org:

Earlier this month, Oxfam and other global poverty groups met with Japanese Prime Minister Yasuo Fukuda. At this meeting, we handed him a global petition with over 575,000 signatures calling on world leaders to take strong action against climate change.

While we delivered the initial petition to Prime Minister Fukuda, we want to grow the petition to ONE MILLION concerned citizens worldwide before the leaders of the eight richest countries (the G8) meet in early July.

Our growing petition has the power to put climate change and poverty at the center of the debate at the G8 Summit. The summit coincides with the famous Japanese Tanabata festival, where people tie written wishes to bamboo trees. We’ll present the petition as our fervent wish: that the G8 leaders commit to ending global poverty and fighting climate change.

Send this petition at http://act.oxfamamerica.org/campaign/2008_g8:
The world can't wait for urgent action on climate change, and it is your responsibility to take the lead. We urge you to set targets to cut greenhouse gases by 2020, in line with what scientists say is needed to avert a climate catastrophe. Rich countries must help developing countries adapt and embrace a clean-energy future, and all must do their fair share to reduce emissions in time. Our common humanity demands nothing less.

breathe in and let everything out

It's time for healing, time to move on

It's time to fix what's been broken too long

Time to make right what has been wrong

It's time to find my way to where I belong

There's a wave that's crashing over me

And all I can do is surrender

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace

It's hard to surrender to what I can't see

but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone

Time to begin again

Reevaluate who I really am

Am I doing everything to follow Your will

Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills

So show me what it is You want from me

I give everything I surrender

Time to face up

Clean this old house

Time to breathe in and let everything out

That I've wanted to say for so many years

Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but I believe

You're up to something bigger than me

Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me

It feels like chaos but now I can see

This is something bigger than me

Larger than life something Heavenly

Time to breathe in and let everything out

-sanctus real

a start's a start.

a friend encouraged me to write bigger than i had before.

to start something.

something that would draw the masses to my thoughts.

i don't know about all of that.

but here i am.

happy start day, blog.